next in line

turning 23 is not a big deal. but i realize that i am not getting younger by the day. i feel that i am just steps away from entering the next phase of life, actually being an adult. 

lately i have few things in mind. serious to not so serious. personal, relationship and family matters. ups and downs made me who i am today. facing problems and difficulties are not easy but it helps me in being wiser. syukur, i can still stand and work my way out. 

of course each individual prays to be a better person each year or even each day, same goes to me. i try to be a little serious in handling things, and somehow, somewhat i want to be more serious. i am jovial and fun tho. but i guess the time has come for me to actually think on my next step, future. 

studies, i don't usually excel but i believe that there are other things that i am capable of, im a late developer maybe. now that im in the uk, i would want to take this opportunity to travel, search for jobs, even tho for sure i know it is almost impossible. i might apply for my masters. but then again, let's just see how it goes. if ada rezeki to stay on here, i would. either to gain experience and exposure or to gain more knowledge. but somehow rather, my heart is in malaysia. i miss home. i miss being so close to my family and friends. i understand this is a challenge i have to face. im happy with my job, with the environment and people. alhamdulillah, with my effort and contribution, ive been offered to be with them still when im done here. i would love to go back to where i was. ive learnt many things ive never knew before and i am eager to learn more. somehow, i am keeping my options open. i know there's alot more out there and opportunities, it's just what will benefit me more. :)

so i guess i will probably take my time on choosing the right path and i hope i will be on the right track, insyaAllah. life is tough ya? but i hope i'll make it.